a time to cry a time to die

Send a wish upon a star
Do the work and you'll go far
Send a wish upon a star
Make a map and there you are
Send a hope upon a wave
A dying wish before the grave
Send a hope upon a wave
For all this souls you failed to save
And you stood tall
Now you will fall
Don't break the spell
Of a life spent trying to do well
And you stood tall
Now you will fall
Don't break the spell
Of a life spent trying to do well
Send a question in the wind
It's hard to know where to begin
So send the question in the wind
And give an answer to a friend
Place your past into a book
Put in everything you ever took
Place your past into a book
Burn the pages let them cook
And you stood tall
Now you will fall
Don't break the spell
Of a life spent trying to do well
And you stood tall
Now you will fall
Don't break the spell
Of a life spent trying to do well
Send a wish upon a star
Send a wish upon a star

still as one

its funny how fate can make you think
the way it plays with your mind
and the weight it reveals
its been yearr, months, weeks and hours since we actually see one another
but all that dissappears
no matter how long and how far
we still seem to catch up
with each other and our lifes
its funny how it happens
the thing is no matter what happens
it seems like we make the same life choices
even being different
whether it be being emo or so much more
i like it how im still youre bestfriend and somehow fiancee
its made me happy that there can be chances for you and me
it maybe unorthodox and its ok with me
all i can say to it is "hey have you ever met me"
its obvious with one hello
or a hi or just a giggle
that we are still as one
goodfriends and separeted lovers
so heres to you and me
still as one
i hope thats all it will forever be

the middle

something there but thats not seen
its here but we never realize it
some say
"its lame"
"is there life in there"
"where is it"
i need clarity and honestly
its not in here
i understand why the middle is evil
because its the cause of my pains
the pains from a muscle inbetween my rib cage
my heart is torn up a little
the tear is tiny, minute pretty miniscule
so dont be afraid or sound the alarm
the tear is slightly in the middle
so when you sort things out
and i finally get real
maybe when i look back
i can say to myself
"being in the middle wasnt to bad after all"
it was just something i needed to be in
but as of now the middle is somewhere i want to run away from
because its overseen and overturned
im stuck in the middle
someone help me
im stuck!
im stuck!!!
im stuck!!!!!

get real

i cant understand whats happening
so many fantasies and what ifs
i wonder off into space and time
i try and try to fill my time
but there is always something in my mind
its something said and is quite common
"i just need some time"
those are the last words youve said to me
i will be a man and keep to it
though its been jsut 2 days
and its kill me inside and out
i cant really think
in fact i cant even express how i feel
all i know is
im sad and mad
im angry and pissed
im alone and lonely
i want to scream
i want to shout
run for miles
drive away
but all the distractions, music, activities
and others more
i feel like ive died a little
short of breath
a piece of me drifted away from me
but i need to stop and accept what fate has on my plate
what i need is to stop whining
i need a reality check
i need to get real

mad

emotions...
its taking over me
anger
madness
and even instanity
all the these things
running though me
i'm angry
and its driving me crazy
something in me is driving me crazy
and its making me angry
its simple
and its complexed
im complexed and perplexed
many ways to think about it
one way to summarize it
i'm mad

desire

im happy
i live life to as full as i can try
but there are things i want and things i need
i can not have it all
but i want to
i dont need it all
but i do
i just want one thing
its you
it maybe simple but its simply perplexed
innate and immpossible
cause i always want things i can not have
and i need thing i alreay want
do you want me
will you need me
i desire these things in my heart and in my mind
ALL THE TIME

passing out

i am alone
there isnt anyone i can turn to
im gasping for air
my breathing is heavy
and my mind is blank
for someone who seems to have all the plans
im stuck with none
i may like the open road
but what happens when the road ends
where will i be and where will i end up
a dry throat, the feeling of choking
i quiver and i am so unsure
the fact i lost you isnt cause i lost you
i just lost us.
we may no longer be a we
but we still are a you an me
and that keeps me happy to a certain degree
but i know what it is...
im exhausted

in my mind

when im awake or when im sleeping
theres only one thing i keep thinking
one person in my mind
and something i cant hide
im consumed with love and full of lust
every second away from you makes me cry
for the thought of me living without you not by my side
makes me want to curl up and die
for we all wander and wait till we meet...
meet that someone we will never hate
through thick and thin
and thats worth all the wait
for things like distance and time
will not weigh in my feelings
small bumps in my life of true feelings
for i feel you and me
we're mean't to be
so here's to us
for as i said we are not I or ME
for those two make a "we"
so theses are the things in my mind
and many more

dreams

it is of you and me,
just me and you.
living our lives
just us two.
we spend our time in neverland.
seeing all the things we can and cant.
but when we are together
there isnt anything we cant.
for you plus me makes a we
and we can do everything.
even dream.
cause when i do
it is of you.
and i hope when you do
it is of me.
je t'aime mon cheri!

resuscitate

I'm out of breathe and somewhat flushed
My face shows it and its all cause of you
You're the cause and you're to blame
I'm out of breathe and I'm just floating
The feeling is mind numbing and its something I like
Why do you think I'm saying this
Well cause its cause I smile
My face is fixed with a smile that's so welcoming
But cause I'm in love and I just can't help it
You keep me happy and out of breathe
Because you never stop surprising me and keeping things real
For I am a boy just a boy who is in cloud 9
So others think I've changed and I need to be resuscitated
Well I can tell you I am much more alive then I will ever be.
For I am yours and only you can have me.
This is my heart so keep it for keeps cause it belongs to you now
I won't be needing it.

story board

My life has changed and its for the better.
the story has changed and needs to be redone
For the addition of a new character has taken the scene
Someone of purity and kindness. They show me what it feels to be in love
For I wait every passing moment I am not with you.
And every second we share is a life worth lived.
I sleep better and there's romance in the air.
I've told you "I love you"
Cause its what I want everyone to hear.
So pinch me now if this is a dream.
Cause if its not I don't ever want to stop.
For the dream is alive and its in the shape of you.
I love everything about!
My dream has just come true.
I thank the lord that you have come in.
My story board is complete its time we just live


(I love you hun!)

gushing out

something simple
something short
a simple line deep in my thoughts
i want to say it
and i want it to be with you
but is it to soon i have no clue
this feels so right
and its like cloud 9
will you have me as your man?
it isnt easy for me to supress my thoughts
its all in a cluster deep in my throat
i want to shout it
especially to the world
it rhymes with "i like you"
and i mean all the words
so i will try to settle down
and keep my cool
but the little boy inside me is flying like a bird
soaring and wondering into the great blue sky
having a taste of heaven and seeing what it feels to be alive

stumbling into a smile

ive stumbled before but not like this
i laugh, i smile and i feel giddy...
what is it i feel?
i didnt mean to but i think i won the lottery
you get me. and i get you.
it feels like i can be open with you.
my mind is spaced out and i cant even think
i wait for every moment i cant get
and it makes me happy to know that you are there.
theres many things i need to know about you.
but what is certain is ive fallen for you.
theres no way of explaining it but its you i want to lay next to
and its me who i want you to lay next to.
its simple and its pure thats what i see.
ive open my life and my heart to you
so please take it but remember
the return policy is "take it but dont ever give it back"

contemplating

its weird how life just takes you round and around in circles.
idk lately ive been feeling a little above and beyond myself
i know who i am and i know what family i am born into
and all of the influential forces and the perks that come with it...
idk its made me think. I cant really tell anyone any of this
but its weird...
ive become very cynical and very surly...
its like the old me is back and well im loving ever second of it...
the things is its like i cant control it...
i need to step back and jsut breathe...
cause i remember how things go when you think youre all above it and well its not where i want to be in right now :S
i still have many things to prove before i can sit pretty on my high horse
but as usual being the B-P that i am it comes with being born into this family
and well as i said i cant stop myself from gloating :P

the ignorant ignorer

why when we, we do and we dont
do i? should i? will i?
if i do what know and so what?
as some might know and most might ignore.
to look, read and stare...
its easy and it takes seconds
does it really bother you
or is it something youre just kot into
if most have it then why are you so ignorant
reply... respond... relay...
its easy, its simple...
dont ever give me something out of the air
or you just have alot in your head.

twisted euphoria

the sadness in my thoughts
the depth of which takes me into the abyss
as i sink deeper and darker
i am shrouded by emptiness as the darkness cloaks me
nothing to think off yet so many thoughts
what have i gotten myself into
living in a paranormal state
its soo surreal.
dazed and cautious i ask myself...
why am i here?!?
what will i do!?!
how can i get these thought off my conscience
so many questions i cant keep out of my head
so many feelings stuck in my chest.
i talked to someone about some of it and the feelings were set free
i felt like it was over...i was happy, just for a bit.
crowds pass and look at me... I, all smiles no frowns and what seems like no worries of the world
its a facade plastered to keep people wondering
im drowning in feelings
i cant explain it and some say its depression that i am "depressed or down"
i think theres just something missing in me i still cant get...
try as i may distracting myself wont fix me well then i dont know what will
even distracted the thoughts still linger
driving, golfing and tennis doesnt make it any better
i can feel pressure building up
and its from all the tension
its this unknown emptiness and loneliness in me i cant fill
maybe thats the problem
but im always with people and in good company...
so what wrong with me?
is there anyway i can release it without exploding.
its like a box stuffed to the brim and im trying to pack it
i have no idea but when i figure this thing out
it will cure my sadness cause it will no longer be in me
so thats the silly part of all of this.
its sick and twisted
its not a state of euphoria its isnt, it aint it wont be