the ignorant ignorer

why when we, we do and we dont
do i? should i? will i?
if i do what know and so what?
as some might know and most might ignore.
to look, read and stare...
its easy and it takes seconds
does it really bother you
or is it something youre just kot into
if most have it then why are you so ignorant
reply... respond... relay...
its easy, its simple...
dont ever give me something out of the air
or you just have alot in your head.

twisted euphoria

the sadness in my thoughts
the depth of which takes me into the abyss
as i sink deeper and darker
i am shrouded by emptiness as the darkness cloaks me
nothing to think off yet so many thoughts
what have i gotten myself into
living in a paranormal state
its soo surreal.
dazed and cautious i ask myself...
why am i here?!?
what will i do!?!
how can i get these thought off my conscience
so many questions i cant keep out of my head
so many feelings stuck in my chest.
i talked to someone about some of it and the feelings were set free
i felt like it was over...i was happy, just for a bit.
crowds pass and look at me... I, all smiles no frowns and what seems like no worries of the world
its a facade plastered to keep people wondering
im drowning in feelings
i cant explain it and some say its depression that i am "depressed or down"
i think theres just something missing in me i still cant get...
try as i may distracting myself wont fix me well then i dont know what will
even distracted the thoughts still linger
driving, golfing and tennis doesnt make it any better
i can feel pressure building up
and its from all the tension
its this unknown emptiness and loneliness in me i cant fill
maybe thats the problem
but im always with people and in good company...
so what wrong with me?
is there anyway i can release it without exploding.
its like a box stuffed to the brim and im trying to pack it
i have no idea but when i figure this thing out
it will cure my sadness cause it will no longer be in me
so thats the silly part of all of this.
its sick and twisted
its not a state of euphoria its isnt, it aint it wont be