contemplating

its weird how life just takes you round and around in circles.
idk lately ive been feeling a little above and beyond myself
i know who i am and i know what family i am born into
and all of the influential forces and the perks that come with it...
idk its made me think. I cant really tell anyone any of this
but its weird...
ive become very cynical and very surly...
its like the old me is back and well im loving ever second of it...
the things is its like i cant control it...
i need to step back and jsut breathe...
cause i remember how things go when you think youre all above it and well its not where i want to be in right now :S
i still have many things to prove before i can sit pretty on my high horse
but as usual being the B-P that i am it comes with being born into this family
and well as i said i cant stop myself from gloating :P